Becoming More Aware

Sam was in a very serious and emotional mood yesterday. She wanted to talk with me in the afternoon and started by telling me that she just wanted to go away for a little while and think about things then she'd come back. She feels very odd, she said,....things are not quite connecting, there are gaps....something is not right. She just needs a break. It's really hard for her, there is something unusual going on.... I have talked with her in the past about what happened to her and did so again yesterday, but Sam continued...I feel kind of drained, I don't know what else to do ...and then in truly typical Sam fashion, she said that "I'll take a break for a little bit and then I'll come up with a solution". Yesterday was a very emotional day for both of us, as we were engaged in this type discussion for many hours, talking and crying together. I tried explaining to Sam that she was doing really well, had already made great progress and just needed more time to heal. I told her that she was doing everything that she could at the moment and that she was truly amazing. Sam then went on to tell me how much she trusts me, that I was her best friend and that she loves me very much. She also asked what she could do to help me. A couple of times the nurses came in and I had to tell them that we were in the middle of a very intense conversation. They of course picked-up right away and let us be. Sam also talked with me about how alone she feels and I tried to comfort her. After awhile, we both were emotionally drained, but feeling better. We agreed to have more such talks in the future and in the back of my mind I knew that this discussion, Sam's awareness, was a good sign. When I left Sam and I flexed our biceps at each other showing how strong we are and with a smile and some kisses, we wished each other a good night.