Consistency

Sam has definitely reached another level in her recovery. She has become slightly more aware and consistent in her knowledge of her surroundings and people. She seems to be trying to leave the "young/kid" Sam behind, although that person does still crop up periodically. She handed me her stuffed animal yesterday afternoon and told me that these are for kids. She doesn't want it anymore. During yesterday's visit, Sam was looking great and had lots of thoughts on various topics. She is still interested in talking about her photography projects, but it is very difficult for Sam to express herself verbally in the way she wishes. She was thinking about all sorts of things, but when she tries to communicate it to us, it does not always come out the way she wants it to. Sam is aware of this which is a good sign. Wendy and Aileen brought Sam the B&H catalogue she had been wanting to look at and also a small camera to play with. Sam right away was able to pick-up the camera and appeared quite comfortable handling it and trying to take pictures. She also seemed to enjoy looking at the catalogue. Also, it is interesting how easily we all fall back into certain patterns. There was a wonderful/funny moment when I went to look for some money in my bag to give to Wendy and I didn't seem to have enough cash on me for what was needed, so Sam right away said, -- "do you need some money?" . This was how our relationship used to be.... me never having quite enough cash on hand at any given time, but knowing that Sam always did, so she would give me a twenty to cover whatever it was at that moment that needed to be covered. Also yesterday, very strikingly, Sam's emotions have deepened and become stronger. Sam and I had a long talk again yesterday afternoon after Wendy and Aileen left and she told me how much she misses me and how difficult it is for her, especially at night. I shared the same sentiment with her. She was crying a lot, but would then get herself together. She was still upset, when I went to leave, even though I assured her I would see her in the morning. She seemed to really understand all of this when we kissed goodnight.