Our Anniversary

Today was our 15 year Anniversary. Last year, when Sam was fine, before this tragedy struck, we had talked about how we were planning on celebrating this day. We were going to have a simple party in our new house and invite all of our closest friends. We new that the magnolia tree in the front yard would be in bloom, along with the cherry blossom trees that line the street. We also new that the lilac bushes and all the tulips would be blossoming as well. It was going to be not only a celebration of 15 years together, but really a celebration of Springtime as well, with all of its' inherent meaning. This morning when I left the house, the yard was even more beautiful than either one of us could have ever imagined. It was tough walking down the steps by myself. In an attempt to celebrate in a small way this afternoon with Sam, I bought two fuchsia colored plastic champagne glasses along with some flowers to Park Terrace. I was trying in my mind to think of today as just another day, but of course it was not. I also had hoped that Sam would be having a good day, but unfortunately, she was not. Sam spent the evening talking about a lot of crazy things which made the evening that much more difficult. There were some funny moments however, like when we were having dinner, and I poured Sam's orange honey thickened liquid into her champagne glass and then poured my Odwalla Blueberry drink into mine, toasted each other and then took a sip....Sam said "this is not Champagne...what is this?" Before I left we both did talk about how much we loved each other, but that is something we do every night. Today was just another day of rehabilitation for Sam, part of the ups and downs. For me however, it was a lot more.